Here we are again – it’s the 22nd of December and like every year, this means two things: First, I’m getting ol.., erm I mean wiser by one year (happy birthday to me, yay!) and second, yet another year is coming to an end. Therefore, this day is always a nice opportunity to look back and evaluate what did and didn’t happen in the last 12 months and what I can learn from it. The twenty-third year of my life has been the most turbulent one so far and I feel like it deserves a decent review.
I left 2017 with a feeling of relief. It was an emotionally devastating year, in which good things only happened to emotionally prepare me for the bad ones. Last year on my birthday, my husband proposed to me and my beloved grandmother died the very same night. This day kinda summed up the whole year in a way. That’s why I was pretty sure that whatever came in the new 2018, could only be a step up for me.
I didn’t really know what to expect from 2018. I was still new in town (we had just moved to Oldenburg from Cologne), I had just gotten accepted for an internship position (so I wasn’t fully employed) and I really had no idea where I would be by the end of the year. I also didn’t really have a plan – I just let things happen. That’s where I was WRONG.
Possibly the most important lesson that I learned in 2018 is that you shouldn’t just wait for things to happen, you have to make them happen. Good things happen to those who wait. Great things happen to those who act.
When I didn’t get offered a job after the internship, I felt crushed and naturally blamed myself for not being good enough. At that point, it was essential to me to build back my confidence as soon as possible and not let myself drown into self-pity and anger. I never told anyone, but what actually helped me a lot was the series Suits (yes, you’re reading right). You know, the one where Gabriel Macht aka Harvey Specter walks the streets of New York like he owns everything and everyone? After binge-watching all 7 seasons of Suits (I was unemployed for a couple of weeks) I actually started noticing a difference in the way I talked, thought and acted. It wasn’t forced, it just came somehow. So when a really good job opportunity presented itself, I went into the interview and just showed the people in front of me, in a very natural way, that I was the only person they should ever consider for the job. And guess what – they heard me. I consider this a milestone in 2018 not just because I finally got my dream job, but because I actively changed my mindset in order to get it. What I didn’t see back then but definitely see now is that sometimes you have to fall in order to get back up stronger than ever – and that you’re the only one who can give you a hand and pull you back up.
Yes, 2018 has been good. I accomplished a lot of goals, but I still have a long way to go. My 2018 resolutions were to read more books and to travel more – and I did both, but not as much as I would’ve liked. Somewhere along the way I got distracted and didn’t really take the time to do those things. I need to work on being more consistent and really focusing on my goals, however small they might be. Consistency and hard work are the keys to long-term success.
My biggest goal for 2019 is to keep growing personally. I need to learn to think more and feel less, or at least not to let those things interfere with each other when it comes to me making a decision. Maybe I’m just being harsh on myself – after all, I’m still just 24! – and maybe these things take time and a lot of life experience, but I’m going to do my best to become a better version of myself and keep improving.
2019 seems like a good opportunity to “make things right” and I’m excited to see where I’ll be standing one year from now.
What was your personal highlight in 2018? Did you accomplish all the goals you set in January? I’d be happy to hear about it – tell me in the comments below!
Cheers and a very merry Christmas to all,